I am sorely behind on my blogs, but I think that is part of my process. I am seeking to be authentic and honor my feelings.
Lately, I haven’t wanted to blog. I keep a written journal, an audio journal, and a food and feelings journal, on top of many hours of individual and group therapy a week. Sometimes it’s hard to take something down in a blog after all that. Or, the processing was so deep and intimate, I don’t really want to put it out there for general consumption.
Most often, I am just tired of processing. As much as I love realizing all of these things about myself and life, I feel I am on the fast track, and it can have a bit of a whiplash effect on me.
So, there you have it. Processing is tough work, and there is time necessary for integration. Sometimes that means not thinking, not doing, maybe even playing a bit.
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I met with my very special friend Amanda today, and we talked about a lot of things, but one is the programming of our mind that affects our reality. It takes a lot of work to be aware of what … Continue reading →
Yes, that’s where I have been, in a time warp. I have lost track completely (almost) of days, hours, whether I blogged for the day or not. Life has been very different, very fulfilling, and soul-opening lately. It’s amazing what … Continue reading →
I have been feeling very full in my belly lately, which makes it hard to feel hunger. I talked to my therapist about it, and she pointed out all of the extremely emotional events I had been through that week, … Continue reading →