The battle within
A part of me crops up, like a spoiled child, wanting its way
A baby born out of the want for love, need for affirmation, the drive to seek acceptance
Born out of lack of love, security, fulfillment, awareness, acceptance
It is the self turned against Self
What do you want, and why won’t you go away? How can I know of understanding and acceptance and love, and yet not feel it?
The black voice, oozing in between the rays of golden light, like tar
Telling me I am not worthy, I will forever be alone, I will never be good enough, no one will love me unconditionally
Like tar, the more I try and clear it, the more it smears across my life
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76- In the middle
In the middle, the juncture
The place where the words of loved ones battle for a place in my life
Let them battle. Let them have their say. I will not choose to follow either
Guided by more, I can no longer be the chameleon
Love meets judgement
In my inner child’s heart
A figment, a remnant of the falsehood I once embraced
Finding my way through a hall of mirrors
‘Incompetent, failure, false, shame, fear, judgement, guilt’
‘Joy, capable, competent, trustworthy, real, acceptance, Love…’
One reflection has no labels and looks nothing like Me, but feels like ME
In this mirror is All, a million stars, a love so expansive, it breaks all boundaries and yet holds All tenderly
Black shadows dancing, swirling, lunging, only to burst into a million more stars, and then a million more
Until all I know is All
71- I feel you
Love knows no separation.
My chest expands, my cheeks flush.
Electric passion courses up my spine, around my head, and up to the heavens, lifting my heart and lips in blissful smiles, blissful sighs.
When I close my eyes, I feel you.
When you touch me, I am seen.
Two souls dancing in the candlelight, caressing the space of one unified heart.
We breathe as one, bending, surrendering, supporting.
Loving.
Mid-night reverie, cartwheels under the stars.
My heart is overflowing into song!
I feel you.
I am you.
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5- Diving Off That Cliff Seemed The Best Thing To Do
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