I am sorely behind on my blogs, but I think that is part of my process. I am seeking to be authentic and honor my feelings.
Lately, I haven’t wanted to blog. I keep a written journal, an audio journal, and a food and feelings journal, on top of many hours of individual and group therapy a week. Sometimes it’s hard to take something down in a blog after all that. Or, the processing was so deep and intimate, I don’t really want to put it out there for general consumption.
Most often, I am just tired of processing. As much as I love realizing all of these things about myself and life, I feel I am on the fast track, and it can have a bit of a whiplash effect on me.
So, there you have it. Processing is tough work, and there is time necessary for integration. Sometimes that means not thinking, not doing, maybe even playing a bit.